Again!

Just came back from UK, haven't getting settle down myself, and I got that feeling again! I hate this feeling cause it is always my weakness! It's all about friendship and I hate losing friends which I truly appreciate. It's like a grenade in my heart , it bursts every year at the same time, you can give any excuses but why? Even after what you have promised me , you still remain unchanged! I might seems  to be not giving out much efforts, but in fact, I did! I guess I am just the outcast of group, I understand I need to get over it and it takes time... I should have myself with those whom truly loves me ...