Again!

Just came back from UK, haven't getting settle down myself, and I got that feeling again! I hate this feeling cause it is always my weakness! It's all about friendship and I hate losing friends which I truly appreciate. It's like a grenade in my heart , it bursts every year at the same time, you can give any excuses but why? Even after what you have promised me , you still remain unchanged! I might seems  to be not giving out much efforts, but in fact, I did! I guess I am just the outcast of group, I understand I need to get over it and it takes time... I should have myself with those whom truly loves me ...

My first working experience in UK

After 1 month+ staying in UK,
I got a chance to work in a chinese restaurant- new world
its quite far away from my house,
i need to take 2 buses to reach there.

But well, i did learnt a lot from today's work even though i just played a small role there since i am still a newbie.
Also, I met some obstacles, the main one is - communication.
I really can't get the words coming out from the mouth of a local people.
Should I say that their accent is just too thick? and of course, their slang really drives me crazy.
it is really embarrassing, but i hold it in, cause i know that's a good way to learn a language,

and what really surprise me is that i get to eat 2 dinners!
That's awesome but too bad i am on my diet now, cant eat too much.
but luckily, i am able to get one meal back home, so ya, that would be my lunch for tomorrow, yeah!
 gonna get back to study later. :(

心碎

Why am i acting like this..
i hate myself now...
it is confusing whether it is true or not
i really hate something from me stolen by another person
and the worst thing is, i handed it to that person myself
there is no doubt that i really like it
and i am afraid of losing it

I am just dumb

转变

刚进大学，
就有了很大的改变，
可以说是我从来都没想过会有的改变吧！
从前的我，
是个被动的， 也不会主动去做自己想做的，也没有勇气。

今年，
我得到了我想要的，
就是住在宿舍里，
可能对大部分的人来说，
自己的家是最温暖的，
我绝对赞成！
因为宿舍让我更珍惜家。
在宿舍里，
不但认识了我从来都没有的朋友，
学习独立， 变得更成熟
我更加了解自己，
还发现原来我有好多缺点。

在这里，
我也做了好多从来都没做过的事，
有好的， 有坏的……

我好希望这一切的改变是好的~

P/S: 新年快乐！

Take A Break

Finally,
i have been really lazy to update my blog,
i can't help it though..
Just feel like update this because WX reminds me.
I know..

i finished my A-level,
been staying at home like 3 weeks ?i guess...
went for a trip with my classmates on 1st of Dec,
we went to Ipoh and Penang,
i have to say that Ipoh has really delicious foods...
thumbs up!
and really thanks to Jun and her parents for letting us stay about 2 days..
and Penang's food is also really good,
i ate a lot ..and i think i gain weight..
laksa and cendol the best..

and i feel really upset and frustrated,
because i will start my degree on next January,
have been suffered for 1 and a half year in A level,
have been hoping for a good rest, but failed..
Seriously,
i need more..
whatever...

Another problem that really stress me out.
I gonna take Law degree next year,
and something just make me afraid and worry,
the main thing is that i am afraid i can't handle it,
my english is not good, and to be in law, english is one of the most vital skill to have.
Then, i am worry about Law would be too hard for me as i heard some negative comments from my friend who currently taking law degree.
And i heard a lot of my peers are taking law degree as well,
which makes me think a lot negatives likes,
it will be too much law students and it will be more competitive in the future,
and i don't stand out...
I started to regret for not taking science in A level...
sigh..

I really need to work this out..
do not want to regret in the future..
Hope everything will be fine for me...
=.=

给天上的您

 No more nagging from you...
regret for not knowing you more..
although i am not the best for you..
can't make you proud...
but i know deep inside your heart..
i do exist!

No worry ,
i will do my best not to let you down!

You will always be in our heart! :)
RIP...

Lifeless

Hey guys,
another post from me..
i know...
i didnt keep my words..
sorry...
its really hard for me to update like every week...i am not good in expressing myself.and also A level is really stress me out..gosh!i really impress those people who actually get 90+ in their A level exam..how they did it?thats insane ..lol..cause i never get 90+.i know i am dumb..but seriously, its really hard..no joke!i have tried very hard but still.Everytime i look at my law textbook , i just stunned there.All those cases are just too much for me...+ have to learn how to apply it on those question,haizz...For those people who is really good in studies out there, any advice for me?i seriously need to study smart than study hard..

Next,
i wanna talk about my health,lol...as you all know...not everyone knows about it though..i actually had health problem in few years back..i was crying like hell at that time..can't accept the facts, poor me!

Today i did something stupid,  i really do doubt myself a lot.But, i will try my best to find a solution for it ,hope everything goes well to me..and i also feel that my eyesight getting worse,help me..i feel sorry to my eyes for not taking good care of them..sorry !

stay happy and healthy ,everyone!
Best regard !